There is a Freak in Me!!!

Suppose you have been with you man for a while and you love him. But and there is always a but you are not happy with your sex life. It's not that sex is bad it just isn't hot. Somewhere along the way something in you woke up. I say woke up instead of changed because it had to have been in you deep inside to be coming out now. And the sex just isn’t quite hitting the mark anymore.
Here is the tricky part what do you do. This is where things tend to go the wrong way.
Why because in most cases you don't say anything, you just get more and more unsatisfied. You sex life that wasn’t great but wasn’t bad either is now bad. And this can have a snow ball effect, you just becomes more and more unhappy and your man, he becomes more distance or he might just find someone else.
Or you start looking outside for that excitement. Then it goes from here pretty much the same way as the other scenario.
You know lets stop right here and think for a minute why is it we have such a hard time telling our partner how we feel. Where is the faith and respect we have for our mates to trust them with our wants and desires.
Are you worried that if you do tell your mate how you feel he will not understand, he will think less of you and leave you? Well his leaving you or cheating on you could be the outcome if you don’t be honest and tell him.
The bottom line is you don’t know what will happen. The difference is in how you deal with it, will you respect yourself more having lost him because you were honest, or because you cheated on him or he cheated on you. If losing him is the outcome I say take the honest road.
He may surprise you, your mate may be that special man who realizes just what a special woman you really are and be overjoyed that you are his woman.
You can’t bring yourself to tell your partner that there is a little freak in you. Yes I said “Freak” why do we insist on making that a negative thing. Hey look, in a relationship with the right mate that is an amazingly good thing.
Can’t tell him then show him, he might be in shock for a minute but he will snap out of it, then the talking and communicating will began. Just think what a healthier closer relationship you might have.
The pleasure of what you would gain would far out weight the pain of what you might lose.
So after reading this you ask yourself, if I wrote this would I tell my mate that there is a Freak in me.
HELL YES I WOULD BECAUSE THERE IS A FREAK IN ME!!!!