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I am what I am
I will not pretend
To be what some
Want me to be
Close your eyes
Clear your mind
Let go of what
You want to see
Now open your eyes
Look at me,
See who I am
See what I really be
See the Mother
See the Sister
See the Daughter
See the Wife
I be all of these
But look again
There is still more to me
See what else I be
See the Cook
See the Housekeeper
See the Job holder
See the Shopper
Now look deeper yet again
There is much more to see
What can that be
Why the best parts of me
See the Friend
See the Bitch
See the Lover
See the Freak
See that all of these
Are parts of me
What more could you want
What more could I be
THEN JUST ME
Ok no one is looking step up to the mirror, look at your reflection.
NOW ASK YOUSELF DO I LIKE THIS PERSON?
When I did that a while back I surprised myself because the answer was NO! For a while I was in shock how could I not like myself. Well the answer was simple I was not the person I wanted to be I was the person everybody else wanted me to be. And I wasn't happy.
So I decided to change that, I am now what I call a work in progress. Working towards being the person I want to be.
It won't happen overnight and sometimes it isn't easy, but I am determined because in the end my happiness depends on me.
NOW
What is your answer when you sneak a peek in the mirror?
YES
NO
MAYBE
I DON"T KNOW
Don't you wonder????
Man cannot discover
new oceans unless
he has the courage to
lose sight of the shore.
The saying that we only see what we want to see is sometimes true, when the signs are right there in our face and we choose not to see them, we are lying to ourselves. And in doing so we are adding to the pain we will feel when we can no longer pretend there isn’t an issue.
When it all comes to a head and the issues are up close and personal right in our face, it is easy to lay the blame totally on the other person. When a relationship goes bad, it can often become ugly; the man ends up being labeled “A DOG” and the woman as “BITTER” among other labels.
It's not easy to get beyond the pain, sometimes it is hard to admit that we were partly to blame not necessarily for the break up or the hurt but we are for the level of damage we suffer.
Because if we had been honest with ourselves and faced the issues early on, we would still be hurt but not to the extent that we are in the end.
The worse part about it is that we refuse to admit even to ourselves that the person we are most angry with is ourselves.
This is a lesson that I learned the hard way, after years of excuses. Why was it so hard to admit to myself that I had made a bad choice and no matter what I did, no matter what I told myself nothing would make it the right choice.
Was it because I didn’t want to fail, was it because of what my family would think and you know in the end I don’t know what the reason was. The reason did not matter anymore. What mattered was “WHAT WAS I GOING TO DO ABOUT IT NOW”.
EVERY ACTION YOU TAKE HAS AN EFFECT ON YOUR DESTINY
Everything you think or do is a cause set in motion
Everyone of your thoughts and actions is going to have an effect or result in your life
Your results begin to stack-up to take your life in a particular direction
For every direction there is an ultimate destination or destiny
WHAT IS YOU ULTIMATE DESTINY
WHAT DO YOU WANT YOUR LIFE TO BE
Something in him CALLED out to me
Something in him ENCHANTED me in my dreams
Something in him TOUCHED deep in my soul
Something in him RELEASED all my secrets to be told
Something in him HELPED make me whole
Something in me RESPONDED to him
Something in me RAVISHED him in my sleep
Something in me WELCOMED him deep in my soul
Something in me GAVE to him all my secrets that I hold S
omething in me ALLOWED him to assist me to become whole
Something in me was ATTRACTION for I saw what I liked
Something in me was CARING because he was so kind
Something in me was TRUST because with him I knew my secrets were safe
Something in me was RENEWAL for he helped me renew myself
Something in me was LUST because taste, feel, smell, ride him I felt I must
Something in me for now is torn but maybe one day can be REBORN
I’m over here, You’re over there
You’re over here, Now I’m over there
Is it that we pass on the way
Or is it that together right here
Is not really the way
Is together right here or
Is together over there
So feared we put misspoke words in the way
You say, I mistake
I say, You mistake
How much more mistake can we make
How much more mistake can we take
I’m over here, You’re over there
You’re over here, Now I’m over there
Is it that we pass on the way
Is it that the hurt is so deep,
Is it that the trust so afar,
That as I back away,
You disbelieve I mean what I say,
That I am your friend
No more, No less,
I had put my lust for you away
I demand nothing I ask nothing
I expect nothing of you
Was just hoping to be your friend so true
I’m over here, You’re over there
You’re over here, Now I’m over there
Is it that we pass on the way
Or is it that we have reach the end this day
VANITY 2005
